The Young Victoria

So yeah!!I just finished watching The Young Victoria.Pretty good,I would say.Worth watching unless you're very much into British Royalty-which I am.

Eczema

You know what's the most difficult thing when it comes to dealing with eczema???I would say its not the skin breaking part neither the fears when bath time approaches nor the agony that one has to undergo when anything(you name it) touches your skin.It's the self-esteem,the confidence that you very much lose every time the skin breaks and your hand gets scaly,rough and blistery.And the last thing you very much hope for is that the eczema doesn't spreads on obvious areas of your body.

I've eczema ever since I was five.Five!!!When other people my age get to hold soft toys, animals and barbie dolls,I was only allowed to play with Lego sets.At first,I wasn't really bothered with scaly skin and rough,wrinkled palmbut that was only true until people around me started taking notice.All of a sudden they sparked up conversations about my scaly palm and they seem so enthusiastic like its something new to them,something rare , something bizarre.

At first,I wasn't at all affected by it, but strange as it might sound, after 12 years I started feeling vulnerable.I started loosing the boost,the confidence that I used to have.It's all gone before I come to realize.

So three days ago ,I paid a visit to a dermatologist(at last).And now I'm undergoing steroid treatment.Yeah!!My eczema was so bad to the extent that I'm using steroid now.My skin has very much improved since then.And I haven't done this for an extemely long period of time.

"I'M HAPPY"

Just a few minutes ago,I was on the phone with Divya and she conveyed to me her fear for HINI.She also told me that rumours had it that a girl from our school- afternoon session had caught the virus.Truthfully,I'm not afraid.The fact that I'm an asthma patient should make me fear more of contradicting the virus.But I'm not an inch afraid or fear for it.I don't know why.But these days I'd been thinking very positively.But positive in a weirdest way.

I attempted thrice for the past three days to come up with a happy post-something to show that I'm ravenous and elated at least.My attempts were futile, so I'm going to stop trying.I'd decided that I'm just going to rant on with my dramatic stories and maybe one fine day (hopefully) , I'll come back writing a happy post.

It gets on my nerves that the weather is so unpredictable sometimes and for that I did not get to exercise this week.My sweat is so going to taste salty.

I didn't realise I was wearing a TOPSHOP to play tennis until today.Funny me!!!

Laughing out loud

Please take note that I'm no more affiliated to the prefectorial board any more.Which means that now I'll appreciate everyone addressing me as Pei Zhen not prefect ah.



So last Thursday was the last meeting and I can't believe I'd actually showed up.Anyway last Thursday was also the day that I'd heard the most ludicrous and inefficient thing in the world.Have you by any chance come across any authority who give you a warning letter and then the next day apologize and pull back the letter??I'd come across one.There the prefectorial board.



If you're wondering,they didn't pull back my warning letter as I failed to present my witnesses before the said date.What the heck????Witnesses.Its this some kind of court proceedings or what.You can easily bribe you friend and come up with witnesses.Isn't that simple???



Yeah, and I happen to come up with another evidence.Ivy and I are very much like critics so we prefer to sit right back.Often we were blocked by a group of tall,lanky prefects.Christina Gan, a girl about my height also prefers to sit at the back.So she was one of the many people who got wrongly accused.She managed to come up with five witnesses.My question now is :

1) Ivy and me are equally short.What are our chances??

Conclusion is that the secretary of the upcoming board needs to at least has the courtesy to lift their heavy ass and scans the room twice.

What a disgrace???

Lately,I can't bring myself to write a happy entry.And it means that I'm still upset.That's why yesterday, I'd booked myself in for a facial session with ADONIS.And for the record,I'd actually stopped thinking throughout the session.It was miracle.I felt so serene,so tranquil and so pampered yesterday.I wasn't feeling upset,guilty nor angry.My emotional outrage was gone.The shoulder massage did the magic,I guess.

Moving on,I'd been doing a lot of thinking lately and I feel its time I get rid of all this superstitious and nonsensical thinking.And things that happen to me lately made me realised that sometimes it's better to not listen.It's better not to know so much because the fact hurts.Bringing yourself to face the truth will be heartbreaking.And feigning that nothing much happens will be a big lie.So why bother knowing the truth???A lesson that I'd learnt lately-start pretending.

Clumsy me.So what!!!

I fell down yesterday.Flat.Here is how it happens.There was a huge rock in front of me so I skipped in a attempt to avoid it.But my legs were too short so I tripped and fell down on my knees.The wound wasn't really bad but my father got so hypochondriac all over it.I think I fractured my toe,but still managed to pull through tennis for two days.I'm not 'lembik'.I'm clumsy.So what.My feets are uneven.So what.

Back to the warning letter story,the more I bring myself to think about it,the more I think about resigning soon.Of course, for some people who don't go for meetings often and was bestowed a warning letter,it was no shocking news.But hey, I have friends coming around asking me what happen in meeting almost every week and she didn't get a warning letter.She barely knows what happen in meetings.

Just because she hands in a letter every time she skips meetings,making her better than me.I should have known this trick.Stupid me!!I should have actually construct a pile of letters with pathetic reasons and hand it in every time I skip meeting.Hey, girl isn't that easy.How long it takes to write a letter??Besides,my father writes up to 40 letters a day.Corporate letters I mean.Letters like this wouldn't take him long.

It all comes back to the point of how inefficient the board is or like my mum said "What a waste of time??Come back and play tennis better, lah".Anyway what is over is over.I told my dad yesterday night and he actually asked why I didn't bring back the letter.He could have write a lengthy note for the Head Prefect straight away.Tomorrow I'm going to get the letter and see what I could do with it.

I'm calling Sherrie now.After all,she's the only one willing to listen to me.

Biggest Mistake

A year later,I'll look back and cherish today.Because today God had blessed me with life's greatest lesson.A lesson that I'll cherish and ponder.I cried.I cried endlessly today witnessed by spectators.My life I cry for only two solid reasons:-one if I'm really upset and two I'm really angry.I was flabbergasted today.

Believe it or not , I got a warning letter from the prefectorial board.For what cause.For not attending meetings.The best part was I didn't get an asthma attack at that time.I think it would be cool having a few people carrying me to the 'bilik sakit'.For heaven sake,if its me getting a warning letter for not attending meeting than almost 3/4 of the board would be in a state of jeopardy.My mum almost got a heart attack when I conveyed the news to her.People whom I don't see them in meetings escaped without any warning letter.

I questioned the secretary in a stern voice.And guess what.She asked me to bring back the letter and come back with my parent's signature the next day.I threw the letter right at her face and yelled saying that getting my parent's signature is equivalent to me accepting the fault.Which means no way.I created a hell of chaos in the whole area.So brilliant Miss Head Prefect got the news and started the usual routine.She went around asking people whether they've seen me in meetings.The secretary started coaxing me saying that maybe it's just a mistake.Back off.If it's a mistake rectify it and then give me the letter.

I started crying and now the idea of crying sounds ridiculous to me.When I start crying,I can't stop.Angelita and Rayel was two kind beings who actually try to cool me down.I stormed into the class and sat next to Joanna.After that,I felt so much better.

The fact that everyone tries to point out to me is that I'm going to leave the board in a week or two.Why bother to create a mess?I have principles in my life and try compromising it,I'll not leave you in peace.Even if it means resigning a day before the official date,I will.Because integrity is so much more important than a piece of decrepit certificate coming from a abysmal board led by an unqualified leader.I was brought up with principles.I don't go around agreeing with others.

Seriously speaking,if not for Ling Wei I wouldn't be bother to carry out my responsibilities.I'm not losing even an inch.Unless I get an explanation,my decision are yet to differ.

Tham was freaking funny today.She thought that I cried because of my marks.C'mon Tham.

I played good tennis today.I managed to scribble the letters 'PB' on the balls and my blows were hard enough to make Mr Choo gasps.

Crocs Rocks!!

A new addition to my Crocs collections.Behold:

By the way,my bags arrived today.Words can't describe how I'm feeling right now.

Bags

Words that best describe the past few days-HELLISH yet AWESOME.Hellish for the fact that I'd successfully screwed up all my papers again and Awesome for the mere fact that I'd slept through almost all the nights.I guess this means that I'm officially insomnia-free.I hope so.

Of late,I'd been having very bizarre dreams.Questioning dreams that aren't scary,which ends up making me chewing my last bit of nails attempting to interpret it.Also,I'd been very demanding lately.You know everyone who know me pretty well got to agree that I'm not a very obsess person.I deal with things pretty well.For instant, I really want another pair of flip-flops from Crocs however I got over it after some time.Still I want it though.Anyway I got really provoked and annoyed last weekend and I decided that burning some cash would be the best medicine to ease my mood.I indulge on a mini shopping spree and ended up getting a T-shirt from MANGO.

My cousin sister was kind enough to fly me some branded bags all the way from London.Behold:

I can't wait.

What the Heck!!!

Guess what.Maths and Science back to Bahasa kononya mother tongue.Anyhow I was not really astonished but would like to grab this opportunity to extend my outmost sympathy to the future generation.Malaysia will have their next generation going to space speaking "Apa khabar??Lu cakap apa.Yakah ,apa itu sphere." How pathetic.

150th Post & Turning 15

Hello readers',I'm officially back(i hope so).Yeah, it's been almost a solid month since I last blogged.For your record this is my 150th post and someone special is turning 15.Yeah, how things are make to coincide sometimes.

Before indulging fellow readers' to one of my lengthy,dramatic and exaggerating speech,let me update you with the little bits of my life.Exams are due next week.Which means by now,I'll be having short crook finger-bitten nails and sleep deprive. Schools as usual are always dreary.My chat box had expired a long time ago and I didn't bother to renew it.I thought of doing it later.And the AWESOME FOURSOME haven't had fun for an immense period of time.Probably it won't happen anymore.I hope not.

And now the dramatic talk begins,

You know how sometimes when you're in such a foul mood and a person comes experimenting all his wrestling skills in front of you.You know how sometimes you need to act humble when a person so much younger than you is so good at something you do.And worst of all,you know how sometimes a person gets so over-protective to even let you touch his cell phone.

But beneath all the wicked and provoking acts he commits himself to,I never live a day through without thanking God for his existence.He was the reason I pray silently every day.I love him thoroughly and words cannot express how I always wish that we'll stop growing.Because soon it'll come a time,where both of us have no choice but leave one another in order to chase our dreams.I pray and I'll continue praying for him.Because he's my one and only brother.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY EONG WEI!!!LOVE YOU TO MAX.

By the way,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESSICA LOO

Articles

I've got about 20 articles to finish before tomorrow.Which means that I have an approximate of two more hours before bedtime.I realize its not very nice sacrificing my precious sleeping time for some EST articles.If not for the teacher who always threatens us with the demerit points,I couldn't be bother to get it done.

This entry is suppose to be long.However the writer is too lethargic and the mood of blogging doesn't really kicks in today.She'll be updating her site as soon as possible.Stay tune.

Hey

School commences tomorrow.And that seriously means its consequences time.I'd been lacking far behind this year academically and socially. You know what I mean,huh.Nothing much about my two weeks holidays and therefore not very enthusiastic to share with fellow readers.I'm not stingy ok.Without me realizing two weeks came to an end just like this- whosh!!I didn't even get the chance to really relax without worrying my results that are yet to be revealed.

I failed badly and I'm not in good shape to handle any of this right now.I dread school tomorrow.I dread results and I plant a hatred towards schooling life.It's hectic.Anyway I would be totally lying if I said there was no fun in my holidays.Big fat liar!!

Yeah!!!The main one was getting the AWESOME FOURSOME back in action.We met up last Friday for steamboat in a restaurant;-obviously.This time around with the economic turmoil hitting our country-we were deeply affected too.No posh restaurant this time.Just a small,cozy Chinese restaurant with loud Chinese music blaring out from the stereo.I recalled how frustrated Ivy was to be sitting just below the stereo.We chortled loudly to almost everything, oblivious to the surrounding.The ambiance and vicinity was not very good-I agreed,however the place lit up with our laughter roaring frequently.

I was ravenous and excited and beaming happily.In simple words:

I WAS HAPPY!!!

Miracles

Do you believe in miracles at the first place??I don't if you're wondering.Miracles happen all the time,unexpectedly, out of the blue.When miracle occurs only then we'll be with by a pang of realization,guilt and often relief and grateful.But what happens when it doesn't.Miracles are never my stuff.It doesn't strikes me and often I'll just get off facing the circumstances. Nevertheless an incident that I'll relate to you in a short moment had brought me to a path of having faith in miracles and most of all God.

Last Sunday,like any other Sundays ,I struggled to get out of bed.While I was flipping around on the bed,I realized that my brother was out of the bed.So yeah.Here it goes.Yes-I still sleep with my younger brother.So what.Anyway it was something bizarre seeing him out of the bed so early on a Sunday.C'mon something's not right.And then moments later,he came back telling me that he had a slight fever.Slight fever only what.Nothing fantastic.He popped some Panadol and I thought he'll be alright soon.

Fast forward few hours later his fever gone from bad to worst.And worst means fever with very bad shivering and blue nails and palms.My parents brought him to the nearest hospital fearing something bad is going to happen.He was diagnosed with a virus infection and was put under very strong antibiotics.There it goes.The next day he gets worst,no progress.I began to worry.Symptoms worsen:-nausea,vomiting,extreme shivering and extremely high temperature.I see both my parents sponging him.And worst of all I was forbidden from entering his room as its contagious.From the crack of the door,I saw how he shivers,how his palms became bluish to purplish.I was scared at that time.

No words can describe my fears.For God's sake he was my one and only sibling I have.I can never imagine my life without him.I never dare to even imagine.I'm an asthma patient.I understand the truth behind one's suffering.On Monday night,I was at my breaking point.I can't take it anymore.I wanted to spill it all out to someone and decided to call Rhenu.I can't get through her.

And then all of a sudden,it just happens.I remembered a book, a Buddhist prayer book that I last read a fortnight ago.I recalled how noble and powerful the book was.This book contains personal and real life accounts by people who went through it.I held the book gently and with a sacred heart and mind I read it aloud trying to get the contents of the book into my mind.Though I managed to finish 20 pages of that book,it was more than enough.

The next day when I wake up,I half expected to see my brother lying on his bed.But God I can't believe my eyes.He was in front of the computer striding his thin and long fingers on the keyboard.Thank God.In that instance,I know who to believe.Behold:

THE NOBLE MAHAYANA SANGHATA SUTRA DHARMA-PARYAYA

By the way,I'm feeling very strange now.

I'll never stop trying

4 more days and that's it.That's it.There goes the mid-term that I'd completely screwed up.Not trying to feign modest here but this is serious.And I mean it.Chemistry 1 and Sejarah 1 tomorrow.Yeah,I know I should be in the study right now memorizing Pakatan Murni and Gerakan Islah...blah....blah..blah.....Anyway I'm not because if I am I would not be here striding my tabby fingers across the keyboard.

So while I was trying to reach out for some revision books,a thin envelope slipped and fell making its way through the air before landing forlornly on the ground.In the beginning I didn't bother much of its existence and I just resorted to picking it up and stacking it back to the pile of books.But something,something just made me so curious of the contents of the envelope.A red one.As long as I can recall,I don't usually keep envelopes in my room.

Very slowly I unsealed the envelope and all of a sudden I started shaking.

It's not everyday that your friends do something extraordinary for you.And it definitely takes a lot of effort and passion to do this.It's very visible that the exams had done a mess to our relationship and triggered it at an alarming rate.But foursome let me tell you what:-I'll never ever stop trying no matter how hard I'll try to preserve our relationship.Let me assure you that what we had built yesterday is so strong and rigid that nothing can take it away from us.Absolutely nothing.It's not how much time we spend together but how much we had gone through already.

You'll know what I'm talking about if you had watched 'Sisterhood of the Travelling Pant'.

I'm so prone

This week had been a very intense one.Our mid-year is stretching right up till the end of May.So I sort of like have an E-May(Exam May) this year.Speaking about exams,my sleep was not too bad.I still managed to sleep in for more than 4 hours.Consider good ok.

This exam also I seriously screwed up all the papers that I'd sat for.I screwed it till the very end.Lately I felt like I'd been very careless in my exams which I don't used to.Its alright getting a slash for questions you do not know but its an awful feeling making small mistakes and getting a mark that you don't deserved.So I sort of figured out why I'm so careless lately.I read through some articles and it was stated that a factor of carelessness is PMS.Gosh!!That would be absolutely right!!!PMS!

The one

I'm back!!Yeah!!Haven't been updating for quite some time.The reason is I reckon withdrawing myself from the blogging sphere, can actually help me deal with my emotions:-more to like acting more natural and less feigning.

Moving on.Mid-term exam in a week's time.I'm making every arduous attempt to digest as much as I can and at the same time trying to not to think about my sleep.Recently my class made a trip to Taylor's College.Being in Taylor's actually trigger me to think more about what I'll be doing later on in life.

Many a times,people just tend to make wrong moves in their life or simply made the wrong decision about their future.I wouldn't dare say I'm any better but the thing here is many people think that being a medical doctor is so great, so prestige.Yeah, indeed being a medical doctor is prestige but is social status enough to outcome passion???

The idea of becoming a medical doctor once crossed my life,but man I got over it.When reality comes knocking,I knew that I'm not good enough and will never be good.So why choose something beyond your capabilities??And then I knew that with my capabilities I need to opt for something lower.Which means that I can safely discard medicine and pharmacy out of my deck of cards.And there is where I come across my passion for food.

NUTRITION

I want to be a nutritionist and a dietitian and I'm adamant that I'll make it one day.From that day when I discovered I'd this passion towards vitamins,I've been reading a lot about nutrition since then.From latest discoveries to old facts , I digest it like I'm all ready to start college.With my stern eating habits which varies from no pork to less meat,I guess I'll make a good nutritionist.

Nah, its all just a dream.

By the way,I'm trying to lose weight in an extraordinary way.No starving,no severe exercising.Will be blogging about it soon!!!

Fast one

For now a fast and short one!!

Yeah..Haven't been updating for like ages.Anyway tomorrow's the day:-the day that I'd long anticipated,the day which will prove whether all my efforts are worthwhile,the day where my heart will start beating and pumping hard again,the day where excessive adrenaline will flow throughout my body system,the day where my knees will tremble hard enough.

I'M PLAYING MY SECOND AND LAST MSSD!!!

I'm excited.I'm ravenous.I'm enthusiastic.I'm jittery.I'm nervous.I'm confuse.I can't describe my feelings now.It'll all be clear by tomorrow.I leave it all to God.Wish me luck!!!

Alright!!

Yeah,I know.Alright.Let me explain!!I know I haven't been updating for ages.Maybe for this entry-just an excerpt on what's going on lately.Yeah!!Camp did rock!!!On another note,we're(Mgs'ians) expecting another assessment soon.And frankly speaking,I'm starting from scratch.Yeah,basically that's all I can think about for now.

Moving on,I'm currently undergoing a very crucial state of amnesia.Believe it or not, in a week I misplaced two very important things:-mobile& Tupperware.

I'm really looking forward to April.Lots of exciting and ravenous things are happening.I can't wait for tennis MSSD, Sri Lethia IU Evening and of course the test.The faster it comes,the better it is.I have so much more to say but somehow the words don't seem to be forming in my brain.Words-tied huh???Or whatever you call it.............

CAMP ROCK!!

I'm actually quite ecstatic for camp this year.Very enthusiastic and excited.To prove my enthusiasm,I'd actually prepared a list on what to bring and what not and carefully typed and printed it out earlier.My instinct says that camp this year is going to rock.How far my instinct is true,you've gotta wait for me to be back and tell you about it???

Maybe part of why I'm so ravenous about camp this year is because I get to skip school for two days.Furthermore this year I'll be going with one of my close buddies-Ivy.And also I'm not that worry about camp this year because we're staying in a dorm instead of the usual tent.The latrines should be much more cleaner and modern compared to the one last year.I just have this bizarre feeling that the camp will turn out good.

Also this year,I'm bringing a whole bottle of vitamin C and multivitamin with me to strengthen my immune system.I would never want to come back half dead again because I have something very vital going on on Sunday.So be positive.

Till then

Bye,
Zhen

Finally

No insomnia , no sleep apnea.Yeah, my sleep was not very good for the first two days but after that WOW________

Though I had managed to get enough sleep,I also managed to screw up almost all the papers.And I'm not trying to feign modest right here.Remember I hate people who feign!!!!

Tomorrow co-curricular activities will go on as usual and Rhenu and I have something really important to tell our cheerleaders.SO DUMB!!!

I am still contemplating on whether or not to go for a swim before going to school tomorrow.I am still in the process of weighing the pros and cons.
Pros:It will be so cool going to school after a swim,I haven't swim in ages
Con:I have to get up extra early

WHAT DO YOU THINK???

Bad skin

Don't be astonish if I say I've got a skin as old as a 83 year old grandma and a skin as scaly as a crocodile.It might sound farcical but a fact still remains a fact and its up to whether you want to believe it or not.Behold:

Eczema had been an obstruction to myriad things in my life.I had been living with eczema for years and I knew how it had strongly affect my life emotionally and physically.Seriously how would you feel possessing rough and blistered fingers???There is no cure for eczema which means that you'll need to bear with it for the rest of your life.

Hello.

Her exam's on Tuesday!
All the best Missy.


Mr.Anonymous.

For once

Here it goes.My monthly test is just around the corner ,so I assume you know what it means.

SLEEP APNEA,DEPRESSION & ANXIETY

No more,no more.I give my assurance.My mind is going to do the magic.Be positive.Yeah be positive.

On another note, Grey's anatomy season 5 is getting better.Who says Grey's anatomy is mundane??

Transformation

Guess what.Yesterday I was feeling very elated after hanging up with Sherrie.Today I'm feeling the opposite -upset.I don't believe people undergoing transformation in their life.I had knew Sherrie for all my life.Who knows her better if its not me???She might say the exact thing to me and I thoroughly agree with her.She definitely knows me better than any of my friends.

But you know how some people try to convince other people that they change a lot in life.And I don't give a heck on those people.Be yourself.Why must you change??Definitely changing for the better is very essential.But how long can you bear to pretend and feign yourself in front of people.How long-a year, two or a decade???How long??????

I was blessed with opportunities to see how people transform and revamp themselves in their life.Transformation factors might range from seducing guys to starting over a new leaf or just merely for fun.I don't get the point.The type of people that I'll try my best to avoid is people who fakes and people who make up stories.

Why bother feigning???Are you happy with the feigning life you're leading??Are you a person who responds to jokes you don't find humorous????Just by pretending what do you get in the long run??

Ignore it

I'm currently not in a mood of deleting posts and previous entries.When I can find any time to past then I shall amend my password and start blogging again.Ignore the previous post.

Hello Pei Zhen!
I've decided to hack your account!
Hahaha. Justkidding!
Can I blog in your blog too?

**You know who am I. So keep your mouth Shut.
**Text me if you want to confirm who am I
**This secret is between you and me.
So,
Shaddap.

Au Revoir, peepps.

*Winks*

The_Anonymous

Light and Easy

I had spend almost a decade of my life in Sri Lethia.I left the school with memories to cherish and ponder once in a while.It still brought tears to my eyes every time I thought about it.It was rather difficult saying goodbye and at the same time withdrawing your loyalty and spirit for the school to another school you'd never envision you'll fit in.Five years come and go in a blink of eyes and I vow I'd never regret for my decision five years back.

I had embark on a journey towards a new chapter of my life.A chapter that I'd no intention of neither closing nor concluding it without any exciting things happening.I'm starting to learn how to take some things more lightly or in a more easy manner.I had try not to do excessive exaggeration or posses frequent panic attacks.I'd learn not to be so cynical and be more modest in life.All these years,I'd also learn that possessions are not all that matters.

How do I ???

All of a sudden I'm just out of words.I start pressing my fingers down gently on the keyboard then tapping the Backspace button gently again.What's wrong with me??Perhaps words tied.Is there such word by the way???

Stop!!!

Hey!!!Its 2.00 a.m by the way.My fingers are still striding gracefully across the keyboard. My brother had been asleep for quite some time.I'm not really sleepy yet so I thought I'll pay a visit to my blog.School's awesome and we're still in the midst of our Chinese New Year break.

Just out of the sudden,I feel like I should stop trying so hard. One thing that distinguishes me from any other person is that I don't and will never feel discourage so easily.I work hard into chasing my dreams and pour every single effort in accomplishing them.But sometimes I get so knocked out and exhausted and feel like I should just stop trying so hard and act according to the situation.But I follow my instincts so much that I'm so persistent and stubborn to revamp what I'm doing.Of course,I absolutely love what I'm doing right now:-studies,tennis and swimming.Sometimes I feel that its artificial and I don't really have that talent.Take tennis for example-I'm very aware I don't really have this sport genes and no matter how much I try I won't go far.But I kept on trying and I feel like right now I just need to STOP!!!

As in really STOP!!!I'll reconsider about playing competitive tennis and maybe I should just stick to swimming after all.

HAPPY CHINESE 'NIU' YEAR EVERYONE!!!!

Elated

How would you feel when you have a cousin who flew back all the way from Australia just to unite with you??? It might seem like a joyous news to everyone but to me I don't feel an inch elated or enthusiastic about it.Her presence doesn't bother me a bit.My life revolves as scheduled:-I go to school,come back,take my bath and eat.On the contrary, my brother was extra jubilant when he heard she was coming down to visit.He did something like a mini countdown every night before he went to bed.Peculiar right.

During the younger days of my life,I used to be very close with her.We were almost inseparable whenever she comes and visits.I grew , she grew.People changes.That's a fact.Maybe its also partly due to the fact of our age gap.She grew and started becoming closer to my brother instead of me.

However I'm really adamant that a time will come where she'll grow and our relationship might progress into a much excellent and satisfying state.But there's one thing I get very elated every time she visits:-I get to use all her cool gadgets.

Not Really

If you were to count and total up the number of mere acquaintances I'd known, you'll be weary and out breath once you get your job done.However if you were about to count the number of super super very very close acquaintances I had, you'll just get it done within seconds.I'm adamant that I knew myself better than anyone does.I choose my friends.It doesn't mean that I'll rather hang out with someone whose parents are wealthier or a person who is smarter.Till now I find it rather difficult to communicate with everyone or in simple words I don't feel comfortable with everyone.

Honestly speaking ,I went through six years of primary schooling with only one friend and that particular person was my best friend.So its kind of hard for both of us to accept the fact when each of us went to a different path.That's not my point.My point is I still find it very impossible to detach with someone so close to me after undergoing a very concrete relationship.

Buddhism

Look I've got completely no intention of transforming my blog into becoming a site for spreading Buddhism.As long as I can recalled,I had never mentioned anything about my religion in the past.Few minutes ago,I was just browsing through some pro Buddhist website and peruse through some really inspiring articles.I might seem to everyone even my friends to be a very normal Buddhist-a Buddhist who doesn't visits the temple regularly,a Buddhist who doesn't know where Gautama was born.Even it would not be a surprise if I tell you that my parents were not aware of how much Buddhism articles I'd read.

Frankly I can tell you that I'm not really familiar with Mandarin and Kantonis.So that leaves me with English.The problem is you can barely find any Buddhist books written in English here in Klang Valley.Its rather difficult.You can find tonnes of those in Kuala Lumpur but tell me how often you visit the temples there.Its my bad too as I can't decipher Mandarin.

I'm in opinion of that a true and sacred Buddhist is not the one who visits the shrine regularly,holding an incense and bowing down to the Buddha statues but rather the one that practices noble qualities in their everyday life.You don't need to visit the temple to be a good Buddhist.As long as you keep on practicing good and noble values in your life you'll always be a great person in Buddha's list.

I believe in Karma and I believe that every action you do today will affect you later on in your life.I feel so serene in front of the altar and the burning incense never fails to comfort me.

I'm or I'm not

I was swirling and dancing across my room with a black velvet dress.It was my first time wearing the dress after getting it from Miss Selfridge a year ago.Though the tight bodice suffocated me ,I made zero attempt in removing the attire.I reflected myself for the very last time and nodded for agreement.I grabbed my miniature handbag and stuffed my cell phone inside.Minutes later I found myself staring at someone so familiar.She craned her neck and both of us gawked in disbelief.

"Oh my gosh.You look totally as in totally different"
"Yeah you too".

We clung hands and walked into the Japanese.The lavish interior made both of us gasped and there were familiar murmurs that were getting clearer as we made our way in.There we were greeted by almost everyone we knew.

The incident aforementioned clearly described the happening of a class reunion.Its been years since we'd parted and each of us went to a different path.All of a sudden this whole event flashes back to me.I felt vulnerable thinking about the times we bid goodbye and comforting each other that we'll kept in touch.After all,Sri Lethia once seemed like a second home to me.I spent almost a decade there and as a person with feelings I still felt the lost.

I'm getting emotional day by day.

I haven't been holding a pen for like months.School commences tomorrow which means that depression is about to kick in anytime.Hahah.I'm just joking.Seriously honestly I'm not ready for school.Few weeks back I was so enthusiastic to go back to school because SCHOOL=FRIENDS.
But right now after meeting up with Ivy, Yenn and Rhenu recently,I'm not really looking forward to school tomorrow.Its going to be a hectic year ahead.I bet tomorrow going to be a very sleepy day for everyone.

A quiet one

So yeah!!I guess right now there must be a lot of people partying out there and having the time of their life.New Year this year is going to be a quiet one in fact every year its very dreary and slow moving.My whole family does not make a big deal out of all this celebration.Worst part is my dad has gone back to Penang for some business matters.

Though the dreariness of this whole thing doesn't bother me a bit,I am still quite disturb.I don't know.Something is bothering me and I don't know what.Maybe I'm scared after all.I just can't see the logic behind all my tangle thoughts.

2008 HAS been a great year.In a matter of time I'll be writing 2008 HAD been a great year.Maybe I'm just scared to leave all those memories behind.I'd been losing a lot.Don't get me wrong:-not in love or relationships.I'm a person with very stern principals in which I do not get myself involve into any serious relationships until I finish high school.

I will never in a thousand years expected that 2008 will turn out well.From being placed in a class with completely zero closed acquaintances to losing the MSSD tennis, 2008 indeed turns out to be a miracle.The best gift that God had given me is blessing me with three beautiful friends.You wouldn't know how much they meant to me.Tell me how many friends out there will tolerate a friend who kept on rambling about her insomnia or depression.Ivy and Yenn listened to me every morning.How many friend will get all anxious and nervous when you're late for exam??Rhenu did.

For me to express all this to them in proper sentences right in front of them is definitely impossible.I'm not very dramatic.But right here I can tell you honestly from the bottom of my heart that you guys have been the greatest gift that God had given to me.There were times I still doubt your presence in my life but I'd gotten over it.To string all this in a sentence I reckon I'll fumble maybe a mixture of trembling lips and slobber all over my mouth.Gross right it sounds.So don't make me confess in front of you guys.Ivy,Rhenu and Yenn I knew no matter what happen in future we're still be 'THE WORLD'S GREATEST FOURSOME' because I still want to chortle loudly.As in LAUGH OUT VERY LOUDLY.

'HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE'.

p/s:I might be considering to shut down my blog depending on the feed backs I get because I feel my real journey is just taking off.

Serene and tranquil

Look, a week before going to Pangkor I recalled very strongly that I ranted on several issues such as insomnia,bloating and etc.Now that I'm back I can safely tell you that my disorders are not due to anxiety but PMS.

Moving on, I still can't get over it.Get over with the soothing and calm waves and the serenity of the resort.The lush manicured lawns and the grassy scent sometimes still blew me away and I wished a thousand times I was there.I'd never stopped thinking ever since the holiday took off.A visit to an island was just a perfect escape from all my preposterous,superstitious and hypochondriac thoughts.

I would never in a thousand years dare to admit that I'm a country girl or a nature lover but deep down I'm beginning to plant a serious hatred towards all this buzzing and hectic city life.I can have a garden at my house or maybe a small nursery but I knew for sure that it was just a temporary escape because the moment I spin around I see another car zooming past.

Different people got different perceptions on where they choose to retire.But I can assure you I will definitely retire in a place with sandy and beautiful beaches.And Pangkor might be one of my many options only if I'm penniless even to fly out of Malaysia.

I missed sunbathing,having buffet for three main meals,dipping myself into the salty sea water,sleeping at the beach.I was thinking of going back there the coming holiday-March right I guess.

Pangkor Island Beach Resort

Peacock
That's me taking the final slug of wine

Orange juice-vital for breakfast

Sunset

Dutch Fort

Serene view outside our room

That's me sunbathing

I'd been thinking a lot lately. 3 days escape to an island was just a perfect getaway to calm my nerves.Now that I'm back,I'd got completely different perspectives on what I see things.I used to love hanging out in malls but now I don't.I don't know.Maybe it's just the aftermath of visiting a place with no malls,meagre cars and zero pollution.Though I hope I'll get over it soon.

I'm Back

Hey all,I'm back!!!!Everything been great and moving according to my plan.I'd the time of my life in Pangkor.Really enjoy myself and wish to be back there again.I'll be posting an excerpt of my wonderful trip tomorrow together with some pictures.Stay tune.

Wish me luck!!

I'm off to Pangkor Island tomorrow and God willing will be staying in one of the most prestigious and lavish resort right there-Pangkor Island Beach Resort.Right now I just hope and pray hard that I don't get my menses. And wish me luck in sleeping tonight.I'll be back in three days time.Till then.

Love,
Zhen

Anxiety or sleeping too much????

I reached for the torchlight and flicked it . I glanced at the clock.Its 4.35a.m.I was wondering "What am I suppose to do at this time??". The answer was easy.I was supposed to be sleeping or at least try to sleep but I made no efforts in accomplishing both.I heaved a loud sigh of annoyance.My back is sore and my stomach is not giving way.I tossed and turned.I woke up,stretched my sore body and then revert back to trying to sleep.All my efforts were in vain.Minutes later I forced myself to get up and on the air-condition.I wrestled with my pillow for a few minutes before I snoozed off.

The next morning,I woke up hoping that I'd at least slept for 5 hours.I opened my eyes and Ta-Da.Man its only 9.10a.m.I'd been sleeping for like four hours only.I reverted back to sleeping but the sore of my body was not giving way.After much tossing and turning,I pulled my duvet aside and made my way to the next room where my brother was already busy playing his computer.I tried sleeping in the other room hoping that a different environment will at least make me sleep.No way!!!

My next intention was to head down the kitchen to get something to bite.When I maneuvered my way out of the room,I felt so dizzy.I made my way back to my room and without further hesitation,I landed on my bed,closed my eyes,shut my thoughts and again I fell into a deep sleep.

On the other hand,I reckoned I napped too much in the afternoon.I slept for approximately 2 hours in that afternoon.

Now the question is "Is it anxiety or sleeping too much"?

I can't go through another night without sleeping.I intend to pop a Panadol before I go to bed tonight.

For those of you out there that have the same problem feel free to share your miseries with me.

Breakfast-a crucial meal

"Eat a queen's breakfast,a middle-man's lunch and a beggar's dinner."

As the saying goes,breakfast is one of the most important meal of the day in fact I would say the most important of all. In today's entry I would like to point out some facts to fellow readers of my blog on how vital having breakfast is.

1.Eating breakfast lessen the chances to get obesity

I am indeed aware that many adolescents today are very conscious about their weight.Many I known are trying their level best to stay in tip-top condition.

My advice to you:Don't take breakfast

2.Healthier heart

Indeed everybody wants and yearns for a healthy heart.Breakfast does all the magic.









3.Fatigue

If you are one of those people who never stop yawning,the chances of your fatigues might be due to not taking breakfast.




4.Gastric


5.Lose all the important nutrients=ANOREXIC

Last resort to suicide

There were several occasions when I questioned some of my close buddies in a serious tone asking them why they don't take their breakfast.And the feedback I get didn't really astonish me much.Some complained that they'll acquire symptoms like nausea,vomiting,and stomachache . But I can assure you ,if you're a person who practices taking your breakfast since young all this problems would not arise.

Confession

Alright its confession time.

I'm not going to Mumbai and I've got zero plans of going there.

The truth is I'm going to Pangkor Island.

I really and trully wish and hope that I'll enjoy myself out there.Wish me luck!!!

Thats why I'm so anxious.Ok I'm insane.Hey anxiety is one of the symptoms of PMS.

Ok.I'm not going to think about it anymore.

With love,
Pei

Lactose intolerance

I seem to be very passionate about milk.I don't know why.I tend to peruse up milk a lot nowadays.Milk fascinates me.If you ask me why??My answer will be 'I don't know.It's just natural'.I did milk for my EST presentation.Whenever I'm in a pharmacy or clinic,I tend to look up more on the nutrition section and the debate on whether milk is good for us always made the front page.

But the funny thing here is.'I DON'T AND WILL NEVER DRINK MILK'.I tend to look at the adverse effects of milk rather than the advantages it bring for our health.Alright a fact still remains a fact and though I hate to admit it,its still a fact.'I'M LACTOSE INTOLERANCE'.

Hahah.Now you know why I dislike milk.Of course milk does contributes largely in providing calcium to our body.But did anyone of you here look at the more ugly side of drinking milk.I call it nature,people just tend to look at the brighter side of something.For instance just take pork.It seems so sumptuous when its cook and serve to you with all those culinary skills.But do you know how much harm it brings us???No doubt I do take pork.If not you're not a Chinese.But I try to consume less.My dad don't take pork for like years maybe a decade.

Back to milk.Alright here I go again.I started drinking milk again last Thursday to confirm whether I'm really lactose intolerance. I don't know whether its due to the fact that Farmhouse milk got more lactose compared to other brands.Two days later, gosh my stomach started bloating and I got bad flatulence.I'm looking like a 6 month pregnant woman now.

Is it because of PMS??I doubt because I don't usually get bloating as PMS.Or is it because of anxiety????

I googled bloating and one of the causes are anxiety.I think I'm just too extravagant jubilant because I'm going to Mumbai.Is it because of that or is it PMS???

Anyway I don't really think I'm having insomnia.Its just partly due to anxiety also.I guess.Because insomnia meant you have difficulty falling asleep.I can sleep but I tend to wake up feeling very excited and this eventually deters me from dissolving in again.

I'm definitely a hypochondriac.I don't give a damn thing about anything from now on.I'm just going to sleep my way off.

Hey or maybe the bloating can be cause for my frequent skipping of breakfast.

Help me someone!!!!

Insomnia

Is insomnia one of the many symptoms of PMS???

Yes, definitely..

My insomnia is slowly striking back again.According to Wikepedia I'm suffering from onset insomnia which means difficulty falling asleep in the beginning of the night and usually due to anxiety disorder.

I'm just confused for the time being.Is it because of PMS I'm having my usual insomnia or is it due to the fact that I'm too elated because I'm flying off to Mumbai soon???

What do you guys reckon????

I really hope fellow readers of my blog can leave some comments not the harsh one and share something you guys know.

Spa

When my parents first told me that they enrolled me into MGS , I was all moody and frustrated at the same time.This was due to the fact that all my friends and buddies from primary have all successfully earned themselves a place in Kwang Hua.My first instincts when my parents conveyed the news to me was 'I've got no friends there.I hate that school'. Frankly speaking,I had once visioned that I'll graduate from high school without any friends.

But after four years soon to be five, I am proud to say that I'm a Mgs-ians. I was blessed not only with one best friend but my list of close acquaintances is slowly loading up. From that day onwards,I always believe in miracles.I believe that miracles are yet to happen when you have that will and believe it'll come true.For instance I can't stop believing that I'm blessed with another three beautiful and graceful friend this year though the fact that my years of schooling are already coming to an end.

Alright that's not the ulterior motive of me writing this post.Shankry one of my close confidantes just celebrated her sweet sixteen.I knew her for four years but I had a feeling that I'd known her for like eternity.In conjunction with her sweet sixteen , we(Lynnette and me) planned a trip to Aeon.

Of course, we did the normal stuffs like eating,visiting the loo and shopping.But what differs this outing from the others was that we visited the spa.'Uh.What spa???'

No.No. I said no.Not this one.

Yeah.This one.

What spa again uh???

Oh ...FISH SPA.

HEAD

95% of unproductive life+ 2% of healthy life+ 3% of bizarre habits=SLUG

Basically unproductive life involves :

1.Sleeping in the wee hours of the morning
2.Napping for at least a minimum of 3 hours per day
3.Lazing and touring around the house doing only God knows what


Its either that or I can also be seen clanging on the mobile for like forever!!


The remaining and pathetic 2% of healthy life includes meandering around the mall pushing my way through a bunch of eccentric crowds and of course TENNIS...


On the other hand, 3% of bizarre habits revolves around chewing on my poor nails to provoking others .


So yeah!!Everyone is off for holidays!!!And I'm still here ranting about how pathetic and dreary my holidays are.Rhenu is off for some weird golf camp which is happening in Rawang.I-vie is already in the midst of packing her luggage for her upcoming trip to Hong Kong.Whilst I guess Yenn is busy planning her itinerary for her trip to 'Kangaroo Land'.


C'mon I'm not that pitiful to stay at home the whole time.On a more rapturous side, I'm actually going to Mumbai.Yeah!!Mumbai ...Here I come..

Oh and by the way the 2% of healthy life I lead is indeed really positive and worth it.While meandering around the mall last week,I saw something shining so shimmering in front of me.Gosh!!I'd been eyeing for this like what seem like years.

securely seal up in the plastic

The skirt with built in shorts-ideal attire for tennis

After deliberating the pros and the cons and contemplating about 100 times (not really ler) in the end, I opted for HEAD. There might be a lot of brands out there that offer sports attire like this. But I honestly I can tell you, if you were to compare this particular HEAD skirt with the Nike one, its hell of a difference.


I'm not trying to point out that Nike products are useless but some products you need to opt for the right brand.Like for instance Nike got cool sneakers whilst HEAD will never in a millions years can manufacture such product.It actually depends.


And by the way when are they going to release episode 10 of Grey's Anatomy...

Hypochondriac

Yeah!!I actually did make a vow to lead a more healthy lifestyle during these holidays.But now here I am already driving myself to break the vow.I had the whole plan of my holidays mapped out here on my head a fortnight ago.

And after two weeks ,I don't seem to be doing anything beneficial or important.In fact,I started lacking in myriad things like for example opting not to attend BM tuition.No offence,I felt that not learning BM will not leave a huge impact in your live later on.Compared to English.Vast comparison.

So right I'm going to renew my vows again today.I'll make sure in the coming fortnight me, Tan Pei Zhen will be doing something more positive in my life.Actually I guess I will.I signed up for a Buddhist Camp happening on th 11th till 14th December.First time-as usual very anxious and elated.

Remember I once said I had depression.Maybe its all illusion.Its just that my mind is playing tricks with my body.And maybe I'm a hypochondriac-a person who believes he/she suffers from some sort of illness when there is nothing wrong with them.Maybe that's all.

Speaking of being a hypochondriac insomnia is slowly very gently crawling back to me.


Wait a minute.

I'm going to give a loud shriek to scare insomnia.The mastermind to all this is your mind.Control it......................

Yeah...Flat

Yeah.Rather than writing 'My holidays are mundane or My days are dreary' and continue ranting about how pathetic I felt during the holidays,I decided to take a meditation break.Yeah, so I'd been meditating lately.A lot.I felt so much more elated and my days are cheerful.So I guess this means I'm back.

Seeing as nothing extraordinary is going to take off during this holiday,I'd planned my entry very carefully.Today is one of the day where the mood of blogging didn't really kick in.But c'mon before my blog becomes static,I'd better do something to prevent it.

I was supposed to be posting this entry weeks back but the enthusiasts didn't really kick in , so I decided to bottle it up and spill it out later.So now here I am spilling out the contents of an old solution.

Pictionary.Who don't know the game of Pictionary? So yeah.It was one of the mundane days in school where teacher enters the class doing nothing and students laze around in an unproductive way.But I got really cool friends.The Great Foursome-we played Pictionary instead of doing what my classmates normally do-zzzzzzzzzzzzz....


The game started well and it was incredulously fun and splendid.I paired up with Rhenu whilst Yenn paired up with I-vie.Definitely the YI team was leading seeing that I cannot decipher half of what Rhenu is drawing.As usual any game played by The Great Foursome will never missed out any laughing moments.Any game.

What do you reckon this is? Rhenu drew this diagram and guess what I said. I dived into words like ' breast,no breast,armpit,no breast, no dot'.When I said no dot,Rhenu and I wasted half of the time bursting into peals of laughter rather than her trying to figure out what to draw and me trying to decipher what Ms Artistic is drawing.

The answer is:Flat

Insomnia remedies

One that I find very interesting:

Learn and practice relaxation techniques

Slow down your breathing and imagine the air moving slowly in and out of your body while you breathe from your diaphragm.

Practice this during the day so that it's easy to do before you go to bed.

Program yourself to turn off unpleasant thoughts as they creep into your mind.

To do that, think about enjoyable experiences you've had.

Reminisce about good times, fantasize, or play some mental games. Try counting sheep or counting backward from 1,000 by 7s.

So yeah!!This is my class T-shirt.Design and printing of the T-shirt is courtesy of Ms Tan Yenn Yenn whilst the words printed are brainstormed by all of us.All of us means the 'Great Foursome'. It was rather funny when we were arguing on the words that should be printed on the T-shirt.

After all the commotion four of us finally agreed on 'The Class of Bigmouths' .But hey Yenn I think 'The Class of Weirdos' will be more appropriate seeing that my class people are all weird.

We had our class party today in Pizza Hut.The number of people who turned up were rather pathetic.Weird people don't turn up for parties. Look 4 Dedikasi is having a really cool class party-They're having a picnic in Botanic Garden Park.So cool right!!!!Before we actually decided to have our class party in Pizza Hut, we actually did suggest a few places like:

1. Green Box
2. Theatre
3. Berkeley Corner(too bad not halal)

And I remembered someone suggested we had Bah Kut Teh seeing that our class is short of funds.Again weird people. I was like telling Rhenu that I wanted a very cool class party very dearly.So both of us started brainstorming. And then I was like:

Pz: Hey I've got a fab idea!!
Rhenu:What!!
Pz:OMG!!Its so cool.It'll be better than the 4 Dedikasi's wan.
Rhenu:What!!!
Pz: Each of us bring some food then we party on the street in front of our school.
Rhenu:Yeah!!!

Hey c'mon partying on the street is not really a bad idea.Is it????

CITA-CITA ANDA

My whole class were supposed to write their ambitions in a piece of paper.Almost the whole class wrote their ambitions or rather their dreams in that paper.Ok,so we got the paper.

The Chemistry teacher was busy discussing some questions and making amendments. Rhenu and me began doing our KEPO job by browsing through other people's ambition.We laughed so hard till the Chemistry teacher shot us a stern look.Plus you know the way Rhenu laughed.You should know!!!

Here are some of the funny ambitions:
Amelia:Perdana Menteri,Ahli politik dan ahli arkeologi

Rhenu and me were like laughing and at the same time dragging the word per..per..........dana.....men.....te.Unfortunately we never finished the word ri.

Sri Dahinoor:
Brand manager(quite reasonable)
Model in Jamaica(hahahhahah)
Own a kingdom(hahahahh)

So Rhenu, me,Yenn and I-vie decided to write something stupid.Besides it doesn't matter because almost three quarter of the class were writing some sort of rubbish ambition.
So my ambition is to be a...Behold:
Nutritionist
No 1. Tennis Player
Prince William's wife

Rhenu's one:
No 1 Tennis Player
Brand Manager
Politician's wife

I-vie and Yenn decided to write something more sensible.But I did recomend them to write soft cups analyser.I'll tell you what is soft cups in the next entry.

So I was like telling Rhenu.
me:Why do you want to be a politician's wife?
Rhenu: Cannot ah
me: Which politician?
Rhenu:Samy Vellu

So I wrote Samy Vellu's wife in Rhenu's column instead of politician's wife and passed it back.

I almost wrote Donald Trump's children.My ambition kay

I always say when you marry someone filthy rich you'll 'EAT GOOD,SLEEP GOOD,SHIT GOOD'.

Insomnia

'Come on.Come on.Sleep.Pei Zhen,no more exams.SLEEP!!!!'
'I'M TRYING'
Its past 1a.m already and I'm still awake.Alright I did some breathing exercise and I resolved to sleep after that.
Guess what-I woke up at 7.30a.m.I woke up at 7.30a.m on a Sunday.I don't mind getting up at 7.30a.m for tennis or for school.But come on I woke up at 7.30am on a Sunday when I got no programs planned neither do I need to go to school.
I did my usual thing of switching my position of sleeping.I craned my neck and stared at my brother who was sleeping peacefully.And I go like 'HOW NICE IF I CAN SLEEP LIKE YOU'
I tried going back to sleep but I ended up staring at the ceiling till 9.30am.
I thought of enrolling myself into a yoga class.I'll try and ask my parents.

Let it be

I'm not a person who was born and brought up to say 'what is over is over' or 'don't cry over spilt milk'. School commences tomorrow after almost one week of holidays.Which means that we'll be getting all our papers back(I guess so).Look as far as I'm concerned,I screwed up all my papers.I stressed all.I've always been very enthusiastic about getting my papers back but for this assessment I show apathy in getting my grades back.Again all the anxiety is coming back again.I'm nervous,I'm anxious,I'm me.

Obesession to tennis

This is what Rhenu said before the PJK paper

Rhenu: My mother asks us to plan a trip to_________

Yenn and me were like wondering maybe somewhere far or beneficial like Sunway Pyramid or a museum.Look Rhenu used the word 'plan a trip' instead of like 'go' or etc...'Plan a trip' sounded so much more serious.She eventually finished her sentence with 'Aeon'.

Both me and Yenn burst into a huge laughter.And obviously Rhenu will never missed out any laughing opportunity.

So we did plan a trip to Aeon. But after three consecutive weeks of no sweating,Rhenu suggested that we go for a game of tennis.Sometimes Rhenu does give brilliant ideas.So 1st stop-tennis court in Klang Club.Behold:

Three weeks of no sweating means extra fats jucking out

My mum picked us up and chaeuffered us to Aeon.We mingled around for like 2 hours to help Rhenu find an appropriate attire for her cousins.Then we had like about 2 hours left and we decided to watch a movie.

So we went to the theatre and asked.

Rhenu,me and yenn: Any movie that starts at 4p.m sharp

Lady:Yes.'Kami'.

Rhenu,me and yenn:OK.

So we watched 'Kami'.There were only like 14 people including us in the cinema.

Thats it

The finals are finally over.The last paper PJK was definitely a great closing for the finals. Anyway I'm back to normal.No more depression.No more insomnia.No more crying.I'm back!!!

Goosebumps

I am certain that I have goosebumps all over my body right now. Look after one week of intense memorizing and reading I, Tan Pei Zhen officially declared tomorrow(Sunday) as an off day. Off means no more studying, no more memorizing, and no more perusing books. For once I'm going to pile up all the strewn books on my table back into their appropriate place.I'm going to make a visit to Starbucks and enjoy my usual serving of Mocha. I am going to loll around the couch the whole day,watching my favourite episode of Grey's Anatomy. I'm going to snooze off the whole day.For once also,I'm not going to try to wake up to the buzz of my alarm.

Is it that impossible for me to do that???


The truth remains unwritten.

Hello

Hello everyone,

Dee Dee

My moniker is Dee Dee and I made my debut 16 years ago with Mummy.I'd been in the draft box for some time before appearing in my Mummy's latest entry. I was Mummy's closest companion and confidantes. Mummy had spent 16years of life with me.As far as I'm concerned, I was with Mummy most of the time:- holidays,sleepover and camping.I love Mummy and Mummy loves me.

Mummy clings on me during the hardest time on her life.She weeps on me and sometimes her tears drench my body.Mummy says that I'm her closest companion and no one can ever change that statement.I knew Mummy's deepest secret that even her closest buddies will never know.Mummy told me everything about her life.Mummy hugs me,kisses me and squeeze me everyday and Mummy says she will never move on with her life without me. Mummy says I'm her inspiration, her idol and her best buddies. Mummy says that I'll never hurt her.

At times , Mummy introduces her acquaintaces to me. Some were pretty astonished with Mummy's character.Some thinks that Mummy is insane.But Mummy is not.Mummy has been teased because of me but she took it as a compliment.Mummy does not care about people's perception about me and continues showering her love to me. There are few that think Mummy is disgusting.Mummy is not. She does not slobbers all over my body and she puts me into laundry every month.

Because of frequent washing, I look worn off.Mummy is sad.She cried and whispered to me and said " I dare not hope for anything on my birthday.What I want is just for you to heal". But Mummy knew that her prayers and hopes are vain.After all I'm not a living object.I'm a 'IT'.

Even though my times with Mummy are short, it was a pleasure meeting with her. I knew for sure that I'll be leaving Mummy even before she gets to celebrate her sweet sixteen. Although my ride with Mummy is coming to an end, I'm going to thank God for giving me an opportunity to spend 16 years worth of life with her.Mummy will be weeping hard when I make my exit out of her life.But deep down, the memoirs of us will definitely stays inside her.

I love you,Mummy.

Fantasy world

Here is how it goes. My dad got this group of friends in which they will meet up for dinner almost every week. This group of retiree forks out hundreds and sometimes thousands of ringgit for dinner,alcohol and holidays(leave my dad out). And while waiting for them to finish,my brother and I had done something really creative and surprisingly our foolish act did impress some of this folks. We cut the grapes into smaller chunks and fit it inside the chopstick. Like this:

We even took the chopstick back with us. Hey.No worries.That chopstick is just like a piece of dirt to that restaurant which earns thousands and millions per annum.

Moving on

Exams pressure is back. I yearn for a swim or a game of tennis.Anyone?

I guess I owe someone an apology.Actually no. I don't know. Wanna know the story:- Here's how it goes.Mr Choo and me and my bro were supposed to be meeting up for tennis at 4.30. But then out of the sudden it started pouring very heavily. But I guessed the weather in the court was quite fine. I reckoned he was quite pissed off with me from the tome of his sms. Tell me what I should do???